http://spazzypunkette.blogdrive.com/ What is tomorrow but today with permission to dream? Thu, 17 Feb 2005 18:00:41 PST http://www.blogdrive.com Copyright 2005. Music Poetry Humor http://spazzypunkette.blogdrive.com/archive/14.html Fri, 18 Feb 2005 01:58:08 GMT fingers numb from no heat in house. Mind racing about everything and being in love with somone's thoughts but not them it's confusing and knowing your mother thinks you're done for pretending you're not ugh I just feel like suck. Will this ever go away? forgot medicine again. Maybe I am done for. February fails. I fail. I think my mind is dying. http://spazzypunkette.blogdrive.com/comments?id=14 http://spazzypunkette.blogdrive.com/archive/13.html Mon, 14 Feb 2005 19:41:03 GMT I'm so ashamed for abandoning this little side blog...I feel irresponsible and fat. If you honestly haven't been keeping up with my mind lately(which you haven't because no-one does because I don't tell anyone about it),here's the downlow. My depression returned with a vengance. I thought this was all fixed.I thought the medicine was my safety net.I thought I was labled OKAY. I feel betrayed by my own head.Why aren't the right chemicals in there,you shithead?I know this isn't my fault,that's what they've always told me,but somehow it IS,it IS my fault for letting myself... (more) http://spazzypunkette.blogdrive.com/comments?id=13 http://spazzypunkette.blogdrive.com/archive/12.html Tue, 10 Aug 2004 03:28:03 GMT what a waste of eyeshadow. didn't even see me. i really hate that he has that kind of control over how i feel. hi my name is Claire and my feelings have been living in the dirt for some time now.because he stepped on them. it's really too bad because i should have quit thinking about this back in June. http://spazzypunkette.blogdrive.com/comments?id=12 http://spazzypunkette.blogdrive.com/archive/11.html Fri, 06 Aug 2004 17:12:48 GMT fuck you john. you lied to me and i'm sick of it. i'm sick of pretending that i don't care. i had so much hope that maybe just for once someting would work out for me. i can't believe you would do that to me. but then again you're a self-absorbed asshole. why did i think it would be different for me?! fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck i really hope i don't hit you come monday. because i know i won't stop once i get started. fuck you!! i ahte boys! all they ever do is SCREW ME OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i hate it! and each time i think it will... (more) http://spazzypunkette.blogdrive.com/comments?id=11 http://spazzypunkette.blogdrive.com/archive/10.html Thu, 24 Jun 2004 23:54:29 GMT I'm about to cry,because I am so fucking frustrated with myself. Why the HELL did I fall for John? I should know better than to think that he won't just go after other girls. Fucktards.Fer real. I want to be selfish for one day,and have him to myself,and say no you're MINE! And I know that won't happen because he is dumb and he likes girls.NO matter how much he tells me I'm different, Do you worry that you're not liked How long till you break You're happy cause you smile But how much can you fake An ordinary boy an ordinary name But ordinary's just not good... (more) http://spazzypunkette.blogdrive.com/comments?id=10 http://spazzypunkette.blogdrive.com/archive/9.html Sun, 20 Jun 2004 18:02:20 GMT I like John.Fuck fuck fuck. Fine I admit it -I've liked him since last october,but never told a soul.What would everyone think? The consequences would be horrific,Kind of like the gas prices. And Anna has a major crush on him,and so of course I let her rant on about it every day,never letting on that hey maybe I liked him? Then last night at the party,at the end,Pat pushed me onto John/John's bed,and I wound up just laying on him,thinking how good he smelled.And he held me,and we mumbled about relationships and summer and my crazy mother,and all I wanted to do was pull the... (more) http://spazzypunkette.blogdrive.com/comments?id=9 http://spazzypunkette.blogdrive.com/archive/8.html Sun, 13 Jun 2004 23:45:51 GMT Pirates tonight!Yaaaaaaaay! I think I'm going to wind up cheating on my dumb butt boyfriend. My hair is gonna be ubber-red,and damn I'll have an attitude to match it. Also scored some black eyeliner.Hotttttt.=P. I likes me an Anna! Arrrrr. http://spazzypunkette.blogdrive.com/comments?id=8 http://spazzypunkette.blogdrive.com/archive/7.html Fri, 28 May 2004 22:10:04 GMT Have you ever felt like you have to cut yourself to see if you still bleed? To see if you're still alive? And whether anyone will ever come running? http://spazzypunkette.blogdrive.com/comments?id=7 http://spazzypunkette.blogdrive.com/archive/6.html Sun, 23 May 2004 20:22:10 GMT Sometimes you can only listen to your logic for so long until your heart kicks in. Too many times it's been too long I don't understand my head Yearning to get close to you I'll be the sheets upon your bed Fingering the keychain full of Ways into your heart I'm driving down a street of memories Back when I knew where to start And as i walked into the hall A red-haired heart-breaker singing you stopped your progress and told me It was the end of the beginning I took you to my shiny room We looked at blacklight stars Drinking in what little I... (more) http://spazzypunkette.blogdrive.com/comments?id=6 http://spazzypunkette.blogdrive.com/archive/5.html Wed, 19 May 2004 00:38:06 GMT Tried to drown self today.Succeeded only in getting soap in eyes,and maybe having a deeper understanding of suidal people. And I ambushed Raphie today.Yum. That's all. http://spazzypunkette.blogdrive.com/comments?id=5