If you honestly haven't been keeping up with my mind lately(which you haven't because no-one does because I don't tell anyone about it),here's the downlow.
My depression returned with a vengance.
I thought this was all fixed.I thought the medicine was my safety net.I thought I was labled OKAY.
I feel betrayed by my own head.Why aren't the right chemicals in there,you shithead?I know this isn't my fault,that's what they've always told me,but somehow it IS,it IS my fault for letting myself backslide like this,for not seeing the little roadmap signs.
I should have guessed,should have fucking known this was coming.
The biggest indicator was how I couldn't even be bothered to eat.I survived on water,yogurt and sugar-packed treats.
I feel betrayed by my own head.Why aren't the right chemicals in there,you shithead?I know this isn't my fault,that's what they've always told me,but somehow it IS,it IS my fault for letting myself backslide like this,for not seeing the little roadmap signs.
I should have guessed,should have fucking known this was coming.
The biggest indicator was how I couldn't even be bothered to eat.I survived on water,yogurt and sugar-packed treats.
I'm so tired of being the screwed-up kid.Just for one day I want to see someone else sit in this chair and try and cope with being less then ordinary.
I don't WANT sympathy for being this -I want a brain with the ability to function.
I have nothing left.
Happy Valentine's Day,mister brain.I guess it's just you and me this year.
I have nothing left.
Happy Valentine's Day,mister brain.I guess it's just you and me this year.